Thursday, March 29, 2007
{ 9:03 PM }
felt like bloggin but no idea what to blog . oh my . thats so random . okay . basically i do agree that i had been quiet at times in school . i am sorry if i did anything wrong , but i am just NOT happy .
apparently my home is filled with this intense atmosphere , cold . it is very very cold . i cant deny that i am really sad disappointed and a little of regrets . i tried apologizing , you refused to accept . i have nothing to say . when i see this pile of needles right in front of me , you cant expect me to make my way there . it is COMMON SENSE . i don't know what will happen . maybe he has denied me as her dauhgter already . i knew that he did all for me . i knew he loves me . but it happen that he broke his promise that resulted me to say something like that . she claims that it was my fault . what i have to say is that, there is this certain percentage of rebelliance in me. moreover , the percentage of rebelliance in me is very high . however i had gave a comma when i stepped into kss . hereby , it coninues . you've seen my rebelliance , you knew it . but you chose to be that manner , you cant expect me to do anyhting better . okay . the sorry for wasting you people's time of reading my above paragrah . is basically something that is going on at my home . my personal life . basically , this week i am impress with my efficiency . i have been doing my homework early before hand . thats miracle for me okay . anyway today is my FIRST MUSIC lesson that i have been concentrating . not feeling like sleeping . thats miracle too . i have nothing to elaborate about what happen in school . so ya . BYE . it will be a busy day for me tommorow . anyway , i really misses 2B . but i believe i can work well with 3C'o7 indeed .
i am feeling really cold . shivering alone . will your appear ?
Saturday, March 24, 2007
{ 2:13 PM }
hello . back from family day!!! ahahx. i am very very high today!!! and it actually just resulted me to be very very tired. the day starts off with the road run . ahahax. is like not very far okay . is only 2.6 km compared to the past . the is like about the same as 2.4 run .
oh ya , tallking about the 2.4 run , i didn't know that i actually took my napfa's 2.4km . on the actualy 2.4 , i was actually playing than i dropped my shoe . ahahax. so is like i thought it was only a training. ahhax. back to road run's duty . i am suppose to stand at the gate and reminding them to run by the back of the science block . NO CHEATING by running across the foyer . in conjunction , i am suppose to motivate them , keep the atmosphere high , as them to run instead of WALK. and i ended up jumping and shouting NON-STOP. i shall empasize the word NON-STOP . though i didn't run , i was sweating like them too . and i am simply tired after that .
UNEXPECTEDLY , CCHMSCO came!!! i so high can!!! i didn't expect that the CO mdm yong will invite is cchmsco . ahahax. saw them in the hall . high . and i was super high . ahahax. i saw many many familiar faces. is like LONG TIME NO SEE!! i miss them okay . ahahax. mdm yong was like telling me them about their gold stuffs . i was like introducing individuals to her la . ahhax. i am just so high seeing them . guess what , zhi wen is the chairman . is like so cool lar. ahahx. okay. i am tired , and i got to do my homework!!! hahahax. buh bye.
Friday, March 23, 2007
{ 8:27 PM }
i'm back again . ahahax. bascially the school has started . and i think i am coping well with all my stuffs . as in compared to last term , at least i am really clear with what are the DOs and DONTs. or in another words i can claim that the time managment is better?? ahahax. okay . bascially the whole week i was having intensive pianoing. ahahx. my exam??? erm , those prepared stuffs was alright . but my sight reading and aural . oowwww. simply cannot make it . NEVER MIND it is OVER!!! ahahax.
yesterday's music lesson , i changed my 1st instrument . from piano to my zhongruan . the reason is because my piano simply cannot make it . haiz . yesterday mdm ng did some random grade . i scored 24/40 . when people scoring 38/40 . can you imagine!!! my standard is just sooooo far apart . it is really really really risky for me to use my piano i assume. moreover that was only the standard of mdm ng, not those caucasian examiner. argh . simon and sandy did well lor. and simon still say he is inferior , than i think i should be demoralised than . aways from marks. we actually draw lots for the order of playing . simon actually drew one and wanted to give me . but i refused and wanted to take myself . it ended up the 1st one!!! how many times le . argh . remembering 2oo4 syf , khsco was the FIRST orchestra on the FIRST day . during the finals , we were the FIRST too . on the same year , the national competition , i was the FIRST in the order of appearance , during the finals , i was the FIRST too . last year my competition , i was the FIRST too , so is the finals , i was the FIRST too . yesterday i was the FIRST in order too . haiz. how many first . it simply , is that my luck?? why cant i get first for lucky draw prizes instead. hahaz.
today . i learnt this in photography okay . the light will NOT reflect in the sky . i am so proud of myself learning something today!!! ahahax. is like i think the trainer is really good . although i was quite sleepy , i actually manage to ask alot questions. ahahax.
okay . time to pia homework again . got to end here. bye bye. family day tommorow. i will be mending booth on family photo . cool right. ahahx. sayonara.
Friday, March 16, 2007
{ 11:36 AM }
it had been one week not posting. whahahahaax. okay. is like just ONE week of holiday , i realised i've learnt ALOT of things. my moodswings very fast throughout the week . from agitated to sad to bored , to happy and back to normal again . i am so inspired to do alot of things. i don't want to be WEAK . is like zhang reprimanded me last saturday. i understood better when the glam shares her seniors story. is much more insane okay. what am i stress. why am i stress. i am NOT suppose to be. lets think , if we are stress and busy , there is actually people who are much more stress and busier than you are. always remember that there is still someone more stress busier than you are . so why are we so frantic about our piles of homework . BUT , i got to bring this point across , which is time managment is important . but it will only be successful if we have punctuality and NO last minute matters. to be frank , i am very pissed off with last minute stuffs as my timetable and PLANS , will be messed up . whereas people with NO punctuality is like wasting time . okay i am not blaming anybody okay. so are we just so weak to think that we are very stress and busy. there is still someone MORE busy and stress than you are.
okay end of those reasons is boring . ahahax. bbasically IP all the way till wednesday. On wednesday afternoon zhao ying and jervin came all the way to Lot 1 and have lunch with me. should i be touched??? ahahax. nvm. but they are TERRIBLY LATE that i am so HUNGRY . so we went sakae to eat the buffet . i am simply like a very BRIGHT lightbulb there. pity me? ahahax. than went to sent them off at the control station and met 2Bians.
we went to NIGHT SAFARI. is so cool can. i knew that i was scared at first. i was really really scared of animals running out. it was because someone told me that there is this sign warning people to BEWARE of animals hop out or something like that. the number of people who went wasn't alot . it was only 16 people. nvm is okay , because it was last minute and at night so ya. ahahax. we printed onl 3 coupons which was only valid for 15 people to be on discount. thats sad isn't it. so we splited the extra 10 bucks. IS OKAY!!! we were still happy. we kept our spirits HIGH. ahahax.
basically ERIC STRONGLY WANTED to walk instead of taking a tram . but i wasn't scared actually. only till he walk those weird weird small small pavements . seems to be quiet and dark type . and i actually dare to walk into the flying squrriel thingy. is like the LARGEST flying squrriel . my hand was all the time interlocking with danielle's . ahahax. we saw the flying squirrel's but they aren't flying. ahahax. so they actually look small. but according to the picture , they look extremely big when they spread their wings. we didn't actually get to see many animals while walking unless you has very good eyesight?? yep . JUNLIANG has seriously good eyesight. he spotted the animals so well . at the east lodge. we decidedto rest! we didnt walk alot actually. ahahax.. so we decided to take the tram . we took the tram and it was so fun . i think we should actually take the tram at first throughout the whole ride. though it would be 45 minutes. i think it will be a meaningful and intresting. on the tram ride i learnt alot. anyway , we actually went to africa , than SEA , than duno north or south america. muahahax. oops. we didn't inform the school about it . ahahax. after the tram ride some people went home. but 12 of us stayed to walk around the souviners shop and watch the night show. the night show is sooooooo NICE. the animals were so CUTE. theres this reptile that just went under our banches . is like... awe... ahahax . and of course we went home after that. oh ya. we bought the photo take for our teachers. and we are going to duplicate it ourself. is so EX... 15 buckks for the first copy.
there is problem uploading the pictures. so NEXT TIME BAH. ahahax. BB.
Friday, March 09, 2007
{ 6:09 PM }
HEY YO!!! today marked the last day of term 1. many things happen today. but i just want to elaborate on my results. though it wasn't good and risky. but is so PHEW. i did not fail any of my subjeects!!! and NOW it is really proven that i can do better for math and sciences instead of languages and HUMANITIES. SERIOUSLY!! i am TRUE!!! fine. than mr koh old me that though i got an A1 for physics , but i may turned out B3 in o levels. which is something i don't want!!! i scored B3 for A math. i am seriously SAD!! regretted not studying during ms choo times. haiz.. anyway. my L1 R5 was 13. it was beacuse of my ENGLISH. is a 6, whereas is my only humanities 3, and the rest were chem physic math chinese. all 1. ARGH. i really want to go ACJC. okay fine , i think i got inluenced by the GLAM , pei qian . argh . okay. no my aim is to maintain and get a 3 for my english!! i must BUCK UP!!!! if possible i must improve ALL my subjects too as it is too risky!!! 1 . 5 - 2 years to O levels. i must do it!!! i can do IT!!! seriously the competitivness atmosphere increased. is so scary can . argh. no more posting. gtg. bb.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
{ 5:49 PM }
okay. i am tired. after being back from OBS i am really tired. i didn't get to have enough sleep everyday , thus i slept in class. okay i don't think i am worst the the way han yang sleeps. ahahax. :P i think after taking up OBS , the challenge that we face and took wasn't only what we did in the camp but it also includes us catching up with our classmates. the homework and test is like piling.
basically i don't really remember what i did too. argh. STML. okay i will NOT allow that to happen. yesterday after our common test , we got oour REGULAR LECTURE CUM SCOLDINGS by MR KOH. is like everyweek after common test period he will definitely lecture us. we were scolded for not haveing our classroom clean. to speak the fact. 3C is VERY VERY DIRTY. is kinda of true. as in people like JIA ZHI will actually clean the classroom herself EVERYDAY. i am so touched can. she so nice.. i don't know how to sweep floor , and she teaches me. seriously i see 3C like a mixture. is like a class is suppose to be like a compound?? being chemically bonded together? but we aren't. we are like mixture.
TODAY , i actually feel something for 3C i also don't know why. i realised that yes, this i smy class , i should actually contribute and do something about it. it is like out of the blue moon i feel this. probably is because it had been a term. is like time flies so fast. is a term. i actually studied for a TERM without 2B. time to grow up le. i am sec 3 . okay finally i really feel myself to be like a sec 3. today i losst my wallet okay. i was on the way home. i went to limbang and wanted to buy something . when i was at the cashier i realised the my wallet was gone. i was so frantic can. i ran back to school and search for it. luckily it was with WAN TING. oh my all of a sudden i love 33> want ting alot. ahahaax. she help me keep because i left it on he canteen table. okay wan ting , i will recognised you as my BESTEST fren. ahahax. and she thinks that i am very blur. hey i did it because i don't want to let you feel so guilty and so bad to be the most blur person on earth. that was to like console you, wan ting. ahahax. :P seriously i think i am smarter after the tremble of the earthquake. and may knew about it and so the before and after results of me. ahahax. anyway i am tired. so bye.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
{ 10:56 PM }
okay. time to reflect!!! don't mind me being naggy as this post is going to be very LONG!!!
i am back from OBS. it was all sort of expected. it is really a camp for you to see people TRUE COLOURS . * wan ting please don't sing* ahahax.
1st day we set off from school , and took a bus to puggol jetty . when we reaches punggol jetty , we were attacked by the mosquitoes there . i admit that iw as so kiasu to actually put layers of mosquitoes repellent. first layer was my own repellent that i actually used on the bus. second layer was LYN's smily face sticker. third layer was doreen's spray. both wan ting and me was actually terrbly kiasu. when we reaches there we saw this HUGE DOG. i was scared. yes i am afraid of dogs , for those people who actually went for the ssc selection camp , you will know that i am scared of cats , so it is the same for dogs okay... but it was only
ONE at the jetty . we make our way to the campsite by a ferry and said BYE to mr yeo. at that point of time , i actually wonder if i will survive through out the 5 days. when we reaches there , there were dogs too!!! plenty of DOGS!!! follow by we were being separated to watches. the meaning for watches over here is not the watch that we wear but is GROUP. because i was this silly to ask how can we separated into watch when the watch is like so small. lolx. i was in SHEARES. it doesn't matters anyway. actually ALL EX 2Bians were in sheares except aisyah. first day was more on the paper work and learning stuffs. so not much activity. but i actually recieved my FIRST AND BIG PRESENT FROM PULAU UBIN. we were actually off to the sea to learn kayaking. so we actually went into the sea and stay at the shallow part of the sea. the water level was about my knee . my instructor was NAFEEZA. NAF!!! whiale she was about to start to teach capsizing. there was this huge ship went pass and resulted with a strong wave. due to the strong wave , there was this girl screaming for help. i walked to her andwanted to drag her on shore , instead of getting her up on shore she struggled and accidentally push me with the help of the wave on to the rocks in the sea. i stood up and thought it was some scrathes and walked on shore. when i went on shore i heard that someone was injured. i went to take a look and it was siew lee. her leg was bleeding profusely. it looks seriously scary. and i said, ' phew , i only gotten so scratches " at the next point of time someone told me that i am injured too but i replied no it was only scratches. than i bend down and look . i was bleeding profusely too like the way siew lee does. i was scared and i actually shouted. it really looks scary. and sat down and dare not look at my injury. went i was asked to stand up and walk to the medical centre , i felt the sudden giddniess and my vision was blur , my hearing was block by a layer . i was energyless. basically i cant even walk, but i got to persist m way to the medical centre. BIG THANKS to siew lee , though the was bleeding profuesly , she actually help me the way. i felt the pain all over my body . i felt so energyless. i have no enrgy to speak and even open my eyes. but wasnt allow to stop talking or close my eyes as they were afraid that i will faint. i tried tolerating. and they told me that i was actually lack of water. yes i did not frink any water that day. the wat bottle look digusting so dirty. the water ter taste like swwimming pool because the put in chlorine . but it resulted me almost faint. haiz. but the medical centre is like some chalet. toilets with heater and i actually bathed with heater that day . i get to have a nap there in the air con room . and finally i was better and they allow me to join my friends for dinner. lyn and aisyah picked me up. ahahax. and htat girl who actually caused my fall was guilty and said the she wants to look after me by seating beside me. everybody guess who the girsl is bah. is kind of obvious. she claims that she wants to look after me but is seriously a joke in everybody's eyes. after that we actually went up for some lecture. and that nightwe were asked to set up bashars and not in tent. is like so pathetic. my group no bahar spoilt so we uses ground sheet. is so SMALL. it is a size of tent for like 4-5 pple only. but my group got 7 GIRLS alyssa ended up sleeping outside the tent. we actually sleep witht he feeling htat we sleep quite long already, instead when we check the tim it was only12. is so sad. time flies so slowly. 1 day = 7 years. at that point of time i just miss home. went for so many camp , that was the ony camp o miss home. and it is oso my FIRST 5 days 4 night camp. 2nd dayit was the day that i actually regret over the ONLY 2 THINGS through out the camp. ffirstly we learnt the belaying. i was the climber the one at risk first for them to practise belay. it was only 3 metres in height and i am shouting. haiz. sad. but i will not shout le okay, i had already conquer my fear. and poor lyn got to be my first experiment. she was really risking her life as i was really a bad belayer. but i CANNOT DISCOUNT MYSELF. ahahax. soo.... thanks to siew lee and alyssa , lyn landed in peace. ahhax. nothing happen . yeah!!! next we actually went fot eh high element the duno what tower. climbing with all sorts of funny funny obstacles. i failed because i just cant get my way up but i tried. i shoufln't have give up thats why i regret . if i have a chance again , i will not allow myself to give up. sorry people who atually hope to see me on top. i failed. next , we actually get ourself with heavy bagpacks and get our way to the 2nd campsite. our navigator was geng lin and zulhimi. the was was really heavy. according to amelia it was about 8 kg. we got oursef to the next campsite. it was really old. very ccreepy. we were actually having some outdoor cooking. the rice was chaotar. but it was okay laaaaa while eating . plenty of WILD DOGS came. scared? but i actually got used to it. the toilet stinks like mad!!! at night we were brought for nightwalk. and even solo night walk. once again i regretted. i didn't do the solo night walk. if i have a chance again i will do it. i've failed my first 2 tasks. and i am actually very demoralised. i really want to do it if i have th chance again. since doreen can do it why can't i. and went off to sleep. i slept soudly lor , it was the best sleep i have thru out the camp .
3rd day due to being the day IC , i got to wake up DAMN early to do many stuffs , but it was fine with me. ahahax. and i actually felt a great difference. i started to like pulau ubin , like the place. in fact the pathetic campsite too. it is so relaxing there , that i actually forgotten about everything. and i came out with this quote. " it is not the environment that adapts to you , but you to adapt to the environment"not bad right. i really understands that deeply. we were off for some hiking again. but it rains. we were like hiking 3 x tougher. firstly it is already tough hiking. secondly , i rains and doubleup the toughness. thirdly my leg was injured. tough it was only some superficial injury , but it hurts as they put those painfull medicines. argh. and we completed it. as manage to hike so long. and we can get back to CAMPSITE 1. on our way hiking. i got to really thanks alot of people who help me tkae my things. ESPECIALLY GERALD> he help me take the bamboo sticks with the bashar thru out. all the way back to the bunk not only the campsite. i actually enjoyed the hike , not feeling tired other than the pain on the shoulder. sheares was so high. back to campsite 1 . is like so nice. we get to sleep on beds that night as the place was filled with thie **** school tents. so we slet in th BUNK. but i get to sleep on the floor instead as my matress was filled bugs. over the night idid not have jacket and long sleeves and long pants as there were wet. i was shivering very terribly. THANKS to siew lee who wake up and lend me a jacket. she slept without a jacket. seriousy thanks her. she has been helping me thru out. during dinner , the canteen was filled with that **** people. as they came as level camp. to be frank , they were noisy. and i actually thinks that kranji has some DISCIPLINE afterall. it is like a group with 16 people. which means their one goupr has 16 doreen.
4th dayi was sooooo happy , as i knew that i could go home the next day. very high and happy. and this is when the highest part of camp is. KAYAKING.we kayak for like 9 km. our navigator waws geng lin again . and m partner was ZULHIMI. he was asked to be the assistance of the navigator and got to be side by side however i have no experince i was scared. i never even capsize. so half way thru. i was aksed to capsize. when i cap size my resucer was aisyah and geng lin. om the other sied there was also peopl capsizing la. but they went over to those people instead of us. only till ah boon ask us where is your resucer. where is geng and aisyah. iw as like. ehh.. my rescurer abandon us and gone. than i was ask to capsize. but instead ii heard thati actually jump of the boat. but i don't hink so lor. i think i capzsize. ahhax. thani hogged on to the boat. i was told to push with my body weight so i push. in the end the kayak did not move but due to the force i move backwards. haiz. and aisyah was like wanting me to be serious but it cant be help. ahahax. than we kayak to our next destination. i was tol to steer right and left as i was seating at the back. i was so lost as i don't know anthing. thanks to all friends who teach me how to do it. ESPECIALLY ERNIE and ALYSSA. because i only understands when the teach. ahahax. than in the river. it was really tought due to low tide. and we have 2 suprises. first the barrier. we've got our leg stuck oin the mud. we actually sink in the mud. all the way til; knee level. thru out the journey people was nagging for peeing. and while we trying to varry over the barrier . gabriel pee. and all of us , our leg were like in the water trying to clean our leg from the mud. and hamirul actually ask why the the water become so warm. in the end , the reason was because gabriel pee. we were told to pee in the sea if we have too. but it is so gross. next one wa the bridge. it was the same too. we actually got to cclimb etc. at that point of time our body were filled with mud. dirty and disgusting. there , we had a rest. we saw TKSS people too. too bad i did not get to see charmaine. ahahxa.than wan ting leg has blisters and she cant bed to untie a shoe laces. seriously i think wan ting is honoured. she is the FIRST PERSON ON EARTH, i unite and tie shoelaces for. normally i call this the disgusting thing and i never did it before. because of this VIP i did it. anyway it was beacuse i was really dirty so i don't mind. than we actually continued. while waiting for ALL boats to be landed, fishes jumped on to yi yang's boat ad his boat was beisde mine . i was shocked. it was kind of big. but asaph so kind saved the fish. we coninued our journey and we actually saw this fallen tree. all the boats moved with their ways. but my kayak was the unique one. zul and me was like. 1 2 3 fornt back. 1 2 3 front back. ahahax. we actualy uses our body weight to get through. and people was like asking are w gving birth. is seriously funny la. ahahax. and we get through and get to the sea again. yeah. so happy can. and plenty of langas. oh ya. NEVER EVER bang on to wan ting' kayak. because i almost cap size all the tim due to banging to her kayak. junjie's kayak was like flood? ahahx. there some cracck somewhere which resulted a flood. ahahx. and that we got to our campsite. is liek a jungle. pathetic place. NO TOILETS. our toilet were trees. disgusted. utterly disgusted. i hate it. but i told myself to persevere because i am going home the next day!!!!i didn't manage to sleep. so i seated through out the night. hamirul setted up campfire for us. i was shivering really hard. REALLY REALLY SHIVERING TERRIBLY. everybody got their long sleeves jackets and long pants. once again i was in shorts and shirt. the way i shiver can be a massage for wan ting. that night peiwen heard wild boars snoring. so we tried all sorts of ways to wake the guys up . oh ya. the rule says that girls are not allow ot go to guys tent and guys are not allow to go to girls tent. BUT , out tent was like not more than 1 metre away. intresting bah. ahahax. ahaiqel did not sleep thru out too. he saw the wild boar. but the wild boar saw the fire and ran away.
5th daywe actually saw the wild boars fot track. it was a family. not only ONE!! and it was acutally all the way to the girls tent. PHEW. we set off back. i was so happy. because we can go home!!!we kayak back and i was like thinking the front kayaker will be more relaxing. o i wanted to try. instead it isn't!!! is so tough and tiring. my kayak was supposed to be right in front . instead. i moved the correct direction but backwards. so haiqel the sweeper. was like what are you doing stunts?? ahahx. instead of being the assistance of the navigator. we ende up being the assistance of the sweeper. it is so stress..i have to be in front of him. no slacking. haiz. than we went back and have jetty jump. is like my commitment is to tolerate and be more patient. doreen's on tiwll be more INDEPENDENT. i hope she remembers. than i jumped down. when i got down , i felt myself like some dipper in the water to create waves as i saw the water flowing downwards. than when esmond got me in the water. he push my head down to drink water. is so salty. madness. i am so happy i completed the WHOLE CAMP. and is back in ONE PIECE.
due to time constrain cannot elaboarte more le. so i got to sleep ahhaax. seriously if it is fun , it only depends on how you look at it. and cherish wht you have now. we are all at our comfort zone, sometime we just got to step into the learning zone and suffer a little. but never too much till the danger zone. one step at a time. BB.
