感激伤害你的人，因为他磨练了你的心志:D

Saturday, August 30, 2008 { 9:02 PM }

once you broken it , the broken marks will always be there .

no matter how hard you try to hide the marks , the marks are still there .

just like a piece of glass .

when you break it into pieces, you may try to tape it back.

but no matter how hard you try, the markings will still be there.

once there is a scar , the scar will forever be there .

however , it is how you look at it that matters whether if the scar is beautiful or ugly.

life is so vulnearable that made smile so valuable. - this is wat i learnt today.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008 { 7:32 PM }

currently having prelims , not exactly free. but i still wana deticate this post to my dearest cousin, Jacqueline.

after reading your blog, i can only say sorry because i am helpless about it. i am aware that is tough , is irritaitng and it anger you alot. but all i could say is don't put your dad in a difficult spot. i know it because i experienced it since young. despite my parents thinking that i didn't know wat happened because i was young. But i'm sorry to say i am aware of my things all these while. my mum frequently reminds my dad not to do the wrong thing , be rationale. or shall i say not a reminder , is more of grumling. i didn't give my say. i watch the scenario myself. i can see that my dad is in a difficult shoe , because on one hand is his own brother and on the other hand is his own family members. put yourself in their shoe , i'm sure it doesn't feel good to be put in a difficult spot. i know you have your hard times . i know is tough. your dad being the solebread winner have to pay for a family with 3 kids.
yes , you can vent ur anger . vent your anger in an intelligent way okay ? no point getting yourself harm and your dad harm because of such pple. dun don't worth your sufferings.
i'm sorry for not being able to help much.

*anyway if you realised , he had never gain my respect before.

SMILE =)

Friday, August 15, 2008 { 5:49 PM }

okay . is time to blog a proper post i guess .

it'd been so tiring these weeks.

visiting the hospital EVERY NIGHT .

till last sunday .

my grandma was discharge to fulfil her wish .

she left after struggling for 3 hours .

despite the fact that she should only struggle for 15 mins and leave peacefully.

i'm sure , this has proven me that she is strong.

she should have left long ago .

ever since she was diagnosed with kidney failure, she was told to be left with only 5 years.

she commited suicide once but failed .

and she carry on her life for more then ten years.

aren't her detemination strong ?

she survived and struggle till everyone is present in her room.

these years must have been tough on her .

she always has her bad temper .

she always scold and nag straight in your face .

all the time i thought that it was her character .

only recently when she left , then i know the reason behind it .

she remove her womb through an operation.
hence , she has an inbalance of hormones and she can't control her temper.

thus , i am strongly touched that she had changed throughout the years.

she has becme smeone very understanding despite being unable to control her emotions.

now, i am so proud of her !
the most impressive thing is , she actually told other's that she is proud of me ?!

when all these while i thought that she would blame me for being so busy.

but i know that she hate people to cry . she is always worried of us , especially meals.

i promise to be happy !

during these days , it brought me closer to my cousins too .
despite me being troublesome and noisy at times that my cousin can't or didn't dare to sleep .

but all of us had a great time together once again.

baiscally when we were ransacking the house, we found many CHILDHOOD PICTURES!

is darn cute, i can't even recognise myself at first. is all my paternal cousins.

try to spot me ? kind of easy actually. according to my cousins , it will definitely be the botak one . ='= my paternal grandma , i cant find a pictureof my paternal grandpa.

maternal grandpa and grandma.

maternal cousins.

my mum and i .

basically ALL the above pictures are people who i love and love me! sadly i can't find my dad pic lar . LOL .

Kong Hwa!

basically the konghwa pple . too lazzy to scan class pics.

2b'o6

4c'o8

SSC and PREFECTS

board exco 2oo8

head and vice heads.

with my DEAREST WAN TING!

my partner.

SSC PRESIDENT and HEAD PREFECT .

my KPVC MATE !

my neighbour.

mr. welfare.

SYCO

RUAN XIAN.

WITH ZHANG .

all the pictures are basically my life .

there's so many pple who love me , of cos i am fortunate and happy!

* if i miss out any of my frens. i didn't did it on purpose. cos is just too many! *

Thursday, August 14, 2008 { 7:44 PM }

it's over.
everything seems to be like a drama series , seems to be like a dream.

however, this entire episode has brought me to learn upon smth.
if you dun show pple respect, never will you expect me to show you any respect.
if you want to show respect , then show respect from the start.
no point shedding ur crocodile tears after disrespecting.

Saturday, August 09, 2008 { 9:48 PM }

many things forms my life .
yesterday 08-08-08 was one of the impt dates which i guess i'll rmb.
a day where everyone step down.
photos shall be uploaded next time okay.

A leader is best when people barely know he exists, not so good when people obey and acclaim him, worse when they despise him.

A real leader faces the music, even when he doesn't like the tune.

Leadership has a harder job to do than just choose sides. It must bring sides together.

The final test of a leader is that he leaves behind him in other men the conviction and the will to carry on.

scene 1 : 'ah ma' * she hardly open her eyes*
scene 2 : 'ah ma' * she open her eyes widely while punching her own chest*
scene 3 : ' i want to go home ! go home ! i want to die at home. i know is time. ' *in hokkien*
'ok ok , let me ask the doctor.'
'NO ! i am asking you to get me home . i will rather die at home. dun ask the doctor.'
scene 4 : 'may i know if she is advisable to go home?'
' wat you think ? you know the consequences if she is discharged immediately. so wat will choose ? to die or to stay alive ? however her condition is getting better . in any case of emergency, i'll try my best to send her home immediately.
' alright then , thanks'

1/2 hour later she took away her oxygen mask , wanted to take her dinner
her eyes was basically staring upwards towards her left at the nurse.
there was a sudden drop of heartbeat AGAIN! from 60 +++ till 28
nurse: can you get the doctor for me?
me : DOCTOR!
doctor was talking on the phone and pointed at another nurse for me.
that another nurse went in and ran out again and shouted for the Doctor.
2 doctors ran in . many nurse crowded outside the room.
the nurse were asking each other, 'why suddenly drop huh ? why huh?'

seriously speaking, i was irritated to a certain extent.

doctor walked out and say is finally fine. ' however if there got be a relapse again. we may not succeed the third time. '

i really dun understand . i dun understand . at this point of time , pple can still be SELFISH .
i also dun understand why when she's fine , he chose to fight . when she's unwell , u chose to cry . that's so irony!

watever it is , the above stuffs are my experience and my opinions only.